Where does the time go?

10 days since my last post?  Naughty, naughty.  It's been busy, but enough of the excuses, slacker.  I am happy to report that I am now jogging three times a week and lifting weights three times a week.  I have also just marked a milestone...I am no longer morbidly obese-just plain obese!  My BMI is now below 40!  Yay!  What I look forward to in the next week or so is another milestone.  I was mentally processing where I've been with my weight over the last, say, 15 years, and realized in about 5 more pounds I will be smaller than my children have ever seen me.  I have not been below my pre-pregnancy weight since having children, so my girls have never known me thinner than right now.  Pretty complex in terms of feelings, you see my kids are 14 and 12.  That's a lot of missed opportunities, in hindsight...
However, I'm not going to let regret stymie my momentum...I'm going to push on through.  I'm going to enjoy this instead of be ashamed or embarassed.  Yes, my family deserves more, and I'm finally going to be able to give it to them.  If nothing else, I hope they will see the fight their mom has in her and that some battles are long but no less worth the fight.
As I finish my salad and regret that it is ending I realize I am a very different person than just a few months ago...still moody and demanding...that'll be my next challenge...but a salad lover?  Who'd a thunk it?  Keep at it!        Jenny